I had a really rough weekend and ended up going off on a weird tangent last night on Twitter about friendship and junk and how my friends are my heroes which I guess is kind of owed an explanation.
I’ve talked about this a little but, in July 2012, I was in an extremely bad place mentally and just feeling completely hopeless and that shit was not going to be getting better. So I tried to kill myself. Sleeping pills. Enough that I thought would do the job but not enough to be missed. You know. No mess. No fuss. Just drag the body away. Well… since I’m writing this, you can probably guess that the sleeping pills didn’t take. I woke up at like noon and was sick the rest of the day. Yeehaw.
What I’ve never told anyone is that I had been planning to try again.
So skip ahead to September that year. I’d decided that I would do it after SPX. Sort of a last hurrah, etc. And then something happened.
Saturday afternoon, I was sitting around with Brandon and Marty and Marty’s now-fiancee Sam of SUPER ART FIGHT, THE GREATEST LIVE ART COMPETITION IN THE KNOWN UNIVERSE kind of hanging around them since I was filling in last minute in the SAF show after the Ignatz awards that night. I was feeling incredibly awkward about the whole thing and, as I tend to do, apologizing incessantly for everything I was doing.
Finally Brandon, being as blunt as only Brandon can, said to me “Just relax. We’re your friends. You don’t need to apologize.”
So that was when it hit me: “I have friends. I have people who care about me. Like… bunches of them. And I was going to kill myself . Oh fuck. I need help.”
And so I’m still here.
So long story short, I wasn’t being at all facetious when I said that friendship saved my life. Friends saved my life and that’s why they’ll be my heroes and I’ll pretty much always look up to them. All of them.
So Super Art Friend and one of my art heroes Jamie has been drawing this really kickass series of anthrobromorphized super robots and I decided to take a crack at doing one of Leopardon from the Japanese Spider-Man series.
He came out looking a hell of a lot like friend and also art hero Chance! and wow this got weird fast. Sorry guys.
Supergirl warm-up doodle.
Tried some new stuff I’m not entirely satisfied with yet, but eh…
Warm-up doodle that evolved out of a Twitter conversation that got out of hand of me and bro-for-life Chris in ill-fitting Blue Beetle and Booster Gold costumes.
And now for the immensely cheesy part: Chris is a great dude who’s been there for me through and listened to a lot of my stupid problems. He has one of the absolute best, kindest hearts of anyone I’ve ever met and his friendship means the world to me.
You’re basically the brother I never had. I love you, man.
10-minute Black Canary warmup doodle from earlier this afternoon.
Omnimon warm-up sketch because guess who’s been back on a Digimon kick lately?
About a month-ish ago, internet friend Brian emailed me about possibly coming up with a mural design thingy for a whole wall in his ad agency’s new office space.
Aaaand here’s what we came up with. I’ve never made something this literally huge before and it’s kind of insane and the whole thing is a huuuuuge honor.